Afraid of Death?

[Naiwen]

I'm more afraid of living than dying because I've had a major suicidal depression and self-harming thoughts and feelings before. Life has been feeling like a drag, a burden to even wake up and breath. When life seems as hard, though, or difficult, like a bottomless pit of despair, misery and suffering, you'll want to end it in a flash instant. That's how I've been feeling about 8-9 years ago for about 6 months myself and I have even attempted suicide and self-harm many times before at 24-25 years old, hating on my human nature, hating on everything about myself and my own current life and humanity. I'm scared of changes and unpredictability, loving more stability, calm and peace more than anything else. Hence why except for a walk, meditation and yoga outside my private lane by my home, I haven't talked to anyone else irl except online.

 

[Sharon]

Naiwen sorry to hear that you've gone through this. I hope that you are getting the help you need. I can understand how dark a place can be when certain thoughts bounce around in your head without an outlet.

As per the question you've titled this thread. I used to be very afraid of dying mainly for the fear of the unknown if there is a life after death. Nowadays I'm less afraid of dying but more so I fear the thought of my daughter growing up without me. The thought alone saddens me a great deal I think I will go hug her now.

 

[MrDawn]

I'm not ready to die yet. I have family and a girlfriend who love & want me around. Which is a nice thought.

 

[Deleted member 49125]

Living is much harder than dying. Living is pain, yes, but it can also bring joy. Even simple pleasures can bring contentment to living a life.

 

[Page]

If you are afraid of death all the time, then you are not making a living out of yourself. Life is life, I mean I can go out and then never come back home. From getting run over or knifed.

 

[nicodak]

I am not at all afraid of death, moreover it is rather she who is afraid of me! Let death come and I will... arghhh...

 

[Jason76]

I think everyone is afraid of death hence why we get antsy driving on an icy road, but it's sure an adventure!

 

[Blazing]

Sometimes what we go through can make of suicidal but the truth is that it is a wrong path to take. We just needs to always know that one come to us especially the bad part comes to past.

 

[Jason76]

A painful death is something to dread but not death, but the feeling you could break people's hearts by dying can be difficult to deal with.