Things change and i am going to work on other projects. I will still visit and will use the site as a member but just won't be staff.
After a while the fun disappears and rather then it being a joy to be an admin here, it became more of a pain and actually gets in the way of your actual life. With a forum like this with so many members, so many staff, so many things going on there is always things going wrong. There is always disagreements and arguments over everything as you can't have a group this size agree on everything and it just gets to the point where you think is it worth it just for a forum?
Of course i will still be around. But i will spend most of my time on other projects which will be alot less stressful and i will be able to enjoy and not feel messed up and confused everytime i come online.
I am not saying anything is wrong with the forum or the people here but i think it is more me. I left once and came back thinking i could handle all the stresses again but it does just get to much constantly and if 9 times out of 10 you come online not in the best of moods anyway it does not help coming on and then dealing with a forum of this size and all the problems you incur. Alot of the staff become staff here and realise that actually there is more to the the forum then people think. Some people think a forum like this takes minutes a day to run. It may be the case on some forums but not here. This forum is constantly moving forward and to move forward it involves alot of work to make sure it is done right and what changes we make will be positive and not have a negative effect. Nothing here is done other night. A lot of work goes into everything and that is one of the reasons i think we are as big as we are. Alot of people rush things and they go wrong and it has negative effects on their forums. Usually you only have 1 chance to make people register and stay here. You have to make sure you make the most of that one chance you get with that person and to do that you need to put in alot of work and thought over days, weeks and months. Not just minutes or hours.
The staff here are great, especially Efc who i have got on well with for years since way before FP started so now we will be able to get on alot better without constantly discussing FP issues all the time because as you probably might guess, it is impossible for opinions to always match. Hcf is absolutely brilliant running the reviews and is always coming up with new ideas for the forum to push us on to be better. Every staff member play their part though. It was and always will be a joint effort between all the staff and the members.
It is fair to say I won't be coming back. Leaving here is something that has been in the back of my mind. I always knew it would be best for me to move on and do something else and be more happy but there was always something holding me back and making me stay. As for my permissions, i couldn't be bothered to undo all my user permissions when i removed myself last night. I just want to be a normal person enjoying FP rather then killing myself running it. I don't know how efc can cope to be honest after being admin here since day 1 :yes:
I wouldn't just leave FP just for the fun of it and for no reasons at all. Being an admin is something nearly everyone here would want to do. It does have some massive advantages and it is a good laugh alot of the time (the staff will agree with that :yes: ) so i wouldn't give it up unless it isn't what i wanted as i know i can't just walk back.
Some people do think of me as being a bit... well... rash and straight to the point and not always nice to talk to. Unfortunately that isn't me normally. That is what i am like when i am stressed and have too many things going on and my brain just starts to burn and implode. Usually i am quiet and someone who likes to cheer people up and have a laugh and cheer myself up in the process. You will all get to see the new calm stress free me now. It will be the real me, not the can't cope anymore me.
Thanks for all the support people and kind words... I am on MSN alot (although i am normally appearing offline) so i will always be around to talk to if you wish :great:
Nothing is forever. Things always have to change. If it isn't the actual forum changing then it is the staff. It can't stay the same. People change, circumstances change, feelings change and interests change. Thats life :great: