Well, on Monday, I went to the ER with my mom and was admitted to the psychiatric unit. What the doctor did was because of my past history with other antipsychotics, figured it best to try upping the dose of the zyprexa zydis. Now I'm on 10mg instead of 5mg. I feel much better on the 10. I have less anxiety, I'm able to sleep better and I have clearer thoughts. I'm really glad to have gone to the psych unit because I don't really know what would've happened had I not gone. I have either a psychiatrist or therapist appointment on June 30th at 9am.
Well I'm feeling much better now that I'm on the higher dose of the Zyprexa Zydis. See, I'm bipolar and tend to shift moods very easily. I'm what's known as rapid cycling. I've had 1 manic and 3 depressive episodes this past year alone. Still working on getting the right "cocktail". I think the doctor and I found the winning combination at this point. We switched 2 medications and now I'm calmer and sleep better. It does make me a bit drowsy but it's worth it for the mood stabilization it gives me...
Well I had an intake the other day and Mom and I made an appointment to see my psychiatrist on July 30th but I feel I may need to see her sooner as I'm starting to go "downhill" again. Don't know what keeps setting it off. I wish I knew. I really dislike the medication "cocktail" I'm on right now but 'I gotta do what I gotta do'...
I'm diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder: Mixed Episodes. Currently, I feel I'm headed into the depressive phase of the disorder, and I just thought I had it licked too. I really dislike one of my medications because it's known for weight gain and has made me gain approx 25 pounds in 5 months. Everyone else writes it off as something else but I think the medicine does play a partial role in it.
Update: Well I'm in "trouble" again. The Zyprexa 10mg is making me restless. At this moment that I'm typing this (as best as possible), I'm rocking in my chair just to keep from getting up and down. Still feel sedated during the day. Feels like I'm on Invega + Abilify combo. (Invega's sedation and Abilify's restlessness). I'm told I have to call in to the doctor of course instead of just going to her office, which I understand but I don't want to talk to her on the phone. I'd rather see my pdoc in person with Mom. I'm afraid to tell my mom what's going on because she'll just think I'm trying to change my medication. (I'd rather be on Abilify to be honest)
What do I do? I know if I have to wait to see her, I'll be safe as I'm not having the negative thoughts but I do feel like crying a bit...
Well right now I'm just restless. I've in the past had sadness, loss of interest in activities, and suicidal thoughts. I've also had spending sprees, agitation/irritability, and hallucinations. I'm doing the best I can to manage all of this...
I saw my psychiatrist today and she wants to get a 2nd opinion from another psychiatrist on my condition.
I've "been a bad boy". I reject the notion of going to a continuing day treatment (CDT) program because I had a bad experience with one already. The doctor (at a CDT program) wouldn't listen to me and gave me a medication that put me into depression to the point of thinking of suicide.
I reject the notion of going to their partial program because the doctor who "treats" me doesn't alter the medication so I find it useless because I may need an adjustment of my meds and he just leaves everything as is.
She wanted to give me what they call a "typical antipsychotic" for my paranoia but I refused because I've read a lot of "bad stuff" about those particular medications such as weight gain, heart problems (which runs in the family) and a condition called "tardive dyskinesia" (a movement disorder).
She was thinking of decreasing the Zyprexa but I got upset at that point and told her I didn't want to take Zyprexa anymore (which I really don't, it makes me gain weight and sedated during the day).
The most I got accomplished today was getting one of my medications changed. I was switched from Zyprexa 7.5mg to Abilify 5mg.
I go Friday to see the other psychiatrist for the 2nd opinion.
Well the appointment was changed. I saw the other psychiatrist for the 2nd opinion this afternoon.
He thinks my main problems are from the Asperger's and not from the Bipolar Disorder. He told me to double the Abilify (so now I'm on 5mg twice a day). He halved the Lexapro because he said the Lexapro could be "activating" me. The Cogentin 1mg and Lunesta 3mg were kept the same.
This doctor wants me to get down to 1 medication (preferably the Abilify). I really don't want to give up the Lunesta because it helps me to sleep but I guess I'll be OK if I take both the Abilify and Lunesta.
First like I mentioned above, the Lexapro is the first med I'll be getting off of. He lowered the dose and I gather next week the medication will be "tapered" again down to 5mg. Next I guess will be the Cogentin and after that Lunesta (which I'd rather stay on, which I probably could).
Yeah. I've had that diagnosis since I was 15. The Bipolar diagnosis came in December 31, 2007 when I entered the hospital the 2nd time. I was in the hospital the first time because of a manic episode and the 2nd time for a depressive episode (2nd time I was thinking of suicide).
