Happy Birthday! I hope you enjoy your day! 🙂
There is nothing wrong with being 30 or near it for that matter.. there are a lot of people who didn't make it, and won't make it.
The kids who were massacred in the Pakistani school last month, the kids who were killed in Sandy Hook, the kids who died on the flights that disappeared last year, the boys who were killed when Boko Haram, invaded their school and kidnapped all the girls, the kids amongst the 2,000 who died along with the elderly who couldn't outrun them, the kids killed by Ebola, other diseases or those who died of starvation. Any of the kids who died in the Columbine, VA Tech, Aurora, or any of the various mall shootings there have been, or will be in the future. There are a lot of kids, mainly little girls who died in China, as a result of abandonment or gender-based abortions and there are a lot of kids who died as a result of abuse, abandonment or being left in dumpsters shortly after being born.
There are a lot of people who never got to see 30, let alone 21, or even 10, for that matter and many more likely won't either.
After all, you could have died yesterday. Which would've been really sad.
I don't know you at all, but I would've been sad if you died, but I am also glad that you didn't, so if you won't celebrate that fact then I will.. 🙂 I've got some Bailey's, Amarula, Godiva White Chocolate Liqueur and a big bottle of Captain Morgan left over from New Year's chilled and ready to go. I only drink once a year, and that is usually New Years Eve/Day or when my brother takes me drinking on my birthday, but, I'll make an exception for you. 🙂
I'm sure your reasons for being sad are valid, and as someone who also dreads their birthday, mainly because it usually falls on weird days, (like Tuesdays or Thursdays) and on the week I haven't gotten paid, and the annoying questions people ask me every year, like "how does it feel to be old?" and people jokingly calling me "grandma" I realized that these people love me and are just glad that I'm not dead, and so, I at least celebrate for their sake, I mean, it's only one day right?
Anyway, I wish you a very happy birthday, and I wish you many, many more. 🙂