I've also worn this shirt. Not once, not twice, but three times.
I used to have a group of friends in grade school, but we all split off because I move around a lot. I got in trouble a lot, too. I met this group of friends again in High School because my mom and teacher wanted to put me into a different class or school. I was stubborn and said I wanted to stay. But it WAS good to see my old friends. It's just hard to go back to sign language and that kind of speech.
In later grade school, I had a BFF. We fought a lot, on and off. I'm not a fan of this period. Middle School was when I had a lot of experiences, including bullies, dumb arguments, and all that shit. I moved in 8th grade because of the same trouble I got into. I got popular for some reason. I think its because of my art, or because of my first name, or how I'm nice. Or I create ruckus. Whatever it was...
High school was better because now I have a rocket on my step. I met new crushes. One became a huge love of mine until she left. I learned a lot in time, and buried my feelings for her. I knew she was interested in theater, films or whatever. I do too. My friends call her shallow, and I kinda agree, but I know she is nice. She just has stupid friends that will backstab her later.
Anyway back to the point. Senior year, I lost all my friends because I said something, or because they moved, or because something else. So now I'm back at zero. In college... I'm alone in this shuffle. Not too many friends or easy ways of hotspots like in High School.
A part of me wants that late Middle/early High School stardom. I wish my mind was as "evolved" as it is now, to take advantage of it all.
So much "what if" I had been more understanding, more knowledgeable (I was smart then, but I mean, I was a kid who didn't give a shit, like a gangster).
A time machine would've solved that. But its not realistic.
