Thanks all (well the one's who werent jerks). Ive been thinking about this decision for weeks now as I knew it was coming. I must have written that offline letter 100 times before I was satisfyed with what it said. I wasn't in this for the money so selling it wasnt an option. To respond to something someone said:
"why still close something that you've put your life and soul into?"
Well that is why I closed it, I put a lot of effort into it and I would like for the forum to be remembered with its great legacy instead of crumbling to the ground after I left, not saying that would happen exactly but you get what I am saying. I have enough stress in my life at the moment and things arent getting any better. Leaving the forum open, selling it, or giving it away would just be one more thing to think about. Not only that but running a forum of that magnitude, it seems like there is more drama/stress than pleasure. I am happy with my decision and I am at peace with a couple luxuries in my life going away. The internet for example.. Its very addicting. It almost feels like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. No more magic box sucking hours out of my day any more. lol.
Its sad that its happened but I can see the positives in it as well.